Saturday, April 4, 2009

Feeling Better

I had a bad day the last time I posted but I feel better now. You know how when you wake up in the morning and things just kinda suck all the way around and you just ponder where the heck things just went wrong. Well that's the way my day was that day. I have never been prone to depression until the last 7 month's and that was when we moved from Indiana to Kentucky. I hate it here and I really miss my family. I was extremely close to my family until I moved. I have missed so much with my nieces, and nephew that I feel like I am now a stranger to them. I know things will be changing soon, we are making a huge effort to get back to Indiana, but no matter how much we look for jobs up there, we haven't gotten any leads.

Tom is depressed more than I am. He misses the kids so much, he spent 6 years getting a Bachelors degree in Marketing and no one will give him a job even though he is more then qualified for the one's he has apply for. I don't get it. We are told our whole lives that if you get good grades, and go to college you will get a good job. It hasn't happened for him. I know the economy is cruddy right now but why is that there are a ton of jobs on Career Builder, and he applies and never hears back? It sucks. I am here for him every day with positive words and encouragement but it only goes so far. Like I said I have my bad day's also and I just want to scream in the middle of an empty forest where no one can hear me.

Things will get better soon. I know this. I have a lot of positive aspects in my life and I know there are a ton of people out there right now suffering through things I couldn't even imagine of going through.

As for the friends part of my life. I just wish I had someone I could talk about shopping, hobbies, make-up, cooking, gardening, and just plain chat with. I miss my sister. She has always been the bestest friend I have ever had. I can't wait to move back to Indiana.