Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Grove to the music

I am a human jukebox! I know silly right? It's true though, I always have a song playing in my head and a theme song to every moment. Right now it's 1,2,3,4 By Plain White T's. Who knows what it will be playing in 5 minutes though.

I received some wonderful RAK's from some very nice people on Ravelry within the last couple of weeks and I have to say I feel so thought of to say the least. Thank you to those that thought of me. I am so touched by stories of others providing for people they don't even know. I give as much as I can.
Every week I am going to try to post one Random act of kindness that I have done for someone. This week I was at the grocery store and looking through my coupons I saw a woman looking through the brownie mix's and I realized I had a good coupon for $1 off two boxes so I handed it to her and told her I wasn't going to use it so she was welcome to it. She smiled really big at me and told me Thank You. That Thank you was enough to keep a smile on my face for quite a while.

Today is Earth Day and I have been out giving my side of the earth a hair cut. We bought one of those cool lawn mowers that you just push and the blades twirl and snip the lawn. There's no gas or electric involved and I have to say I love it. It gives me something to do and I feel like I am not polluting the environment. Oh and did I mention that we have 2.5+ acres of land? Yeah! Happy Earth day Earth People :)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I was lost, but now I'm found

I am back and Oh so much better.
We left on Wednesday and drove straight through to Rehoboth Beach and man was it miserable from all the rain. We were exhausted by time we got there. I was extremely surprised at how big the town was, I was honestly expecting it to look about as big as Mackinaw City Michigan. Holy Cow Batman, it was big and OH YEAH Outlet malls every where you looked! Woohoo to bad I'm broke though LOL. No taxes also, that's a kicker huh! I have to get my pictures off my phone so I can post them on here. On Thursday we went to the beach and I loved it.

I could have spent the rest of my life right on that beach. I think the waves healed me. I feel as though they washed all my troubled thoughts and feelings away. I feel lighter, I think it's because I realized my life is mine and I make what I want of it. I am me, I am what I think I am. For the first time in my life I feel as though I can just not care about what others think or feel towards me. I have spent my whole life trying to please others and give them what they want and tell them what they want. I won't do it any more.

Life is exceptional. I have to do whatever I can to make sure I remember that.

Thursday was spent packing up the house and shopping. Ahhhh I love to shop! If you ever need someone to shop with you I have this unbelievable knack of shopping for hours on end. I can spend 3 hours walking and looking at Wal-Mart, Meijer, or Target even though I know exactly what they have on their shelves every single time I go there and it's often. I just love being out. Don't get me wrong I love being at home also, but there is just something about looking and staring at things. I don't buy a lot due to being broke 97% of the time, but hey shopping is shopping as far as I am concerned. I did buy a couple shirts at Lane Bryant that I desperately needed, and a set of Pink Spatulas at Le Gourmet or some such place. I picked up a coffee mug for Tom seeing how he collects them, and that's about the only thing I can find that I know he would want.

Thursday evening was not fun, my step daughter came into my room and was crying because she said there was bugs in the bathtub and her hairbrush! I hung up with Tom and checked it out. I had her wake up Nana and she in turn and woke up Tom's Aunt. We all concluded that OMG!!! C. had critter's! Yes she had lice! Nana and I went to CVS at 9:40pm and got a kit to rid us of these little intruders. I spent 2 hours doing just that. We had to throw away pillows and wash everything that we could in the hottest water we could. My head is itching just telling this story! No I didn't catch any critters either I have had my head checked at least 6 times since Thursday night and I even washed my head in the critter shampoo.
C. caught her critters from a little girl at school because she felt sorry for the little girl because the other kids were making fun of her for having critters and C. didn't think it was nice and played with her at recess. At least so got them from kindness and not uncleanliness right? I know critters are critters though. So C. is now clear of all critters and this makes for a very happy Linda.

We left Friday late afternoon but not before we went to the beach for a few and I even got a bit of a light burn due to not thinking it was so hot out. It was so beautiful and I never wanted to leave but we had to start out and get some driving time in. We stayed at a Holiday Inn Friday evening and drove the rest of the way on Saturday.

Over all it was an awesome trip but I traveled 40 hrs from Friday April 10 to Sunday April 19 and I was exhausted to say the least.

Have a great day and Smile more

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Gone for a bit

We headed up to Indiana this weekend for Easter to visit the home slices (family) (I'm trying to be hip, leave me alone :P). I realized today how much I missed visiting with my family and how wild they can be. We had a big blow out at my bro's house and I spent a bit of time with my little wild nephew T.

OMG that is one wild, crazy, funny, goofy baby! I could not keep up with that child no matter what. I also realized if Tom and I have one of those crazy rugrats, that was how I was going to feel every day with a toddler, I would be all crazy like! To be honest I loved every minute of it.

My nieces were their usual charming selves and jacked all up on sugar. Ahhh to be a child on a sugar high again. Heck what am I talking about I was jacked all up on sugar along with them LOL. Hey don't judge you! You know you have that secret candy stash you sneak into and pig out on and then sit in your sugar induced coma with that goofy ass smile on your face. LOL. Haha called you out didn't I? Anyhow I had a lot of fun, I even flew a kite. It went extremely high up but my brother distracted me and it landed on the roof where it proceeded to get stuck and my brother Luke had to climb up on Jp and get it off. After that it just wouldn't fly again :( I was sad for a bit then started playing with the kid's goo stuff they got, Yes I am a child at heart so, so suck my toe all the way to Mexico Hehe. Damn Sugar making me all sorts of loopy.

Hey guess what I am doing in the next week? Well for one working on my eber secret swap partner package and number two? I am heading off to Delaware! OH YEAH! Mini Vaction for me this week. I am going with my Mother in Law and my step Daughter to help pack up my husbands deceased Great Uncle's home. He passed last year and they finally sold the house in Rehoboth Beach. I am soooooo excited. I have never been to the East Coast and I have always wanted to get over there. Someday I would love to travel up the East and West Coastal ways and check it all out but until then this will be AWESOME.

Hey have you seen this commerical?


Have a great day all and Hope you all got that lovely Sugar High!

(This is from one of my all time favorite movies Empire Records)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Oh the Place's I want to go

There are so many place's in this beautiful world that I long to visit and I figured I would post them and put down my why's of wanting to see them.

Japan- I am love with pretty much any thing Japanese honestly. I love the movement there. They are such a wonderful culture. A few of my favorite things: Japanese Crochet/Knitting, Sushi, Hello Kitty and Friends, Bento, Cherry Blossoms,Fans, The fact they have a festival almost every weekend, Vending Machines with anything and everything in them, Clean cities, Karaoke, Goofy tv shows, Geisha, Tokyo,Tea, Panchinko, The Architecture, Japanese macaques (those monkeys that hang out in the hot springs), among many many more things.

Have a great day :)

Feeling Better

I had a bad day the last time I posted but I feel better now. You know how when you wake up in the morning and things just kinda suck all the way around and you just ponder where the heck things just went wrong. Well that's the way my day was that day. I have never been prone to depression until the last 7 month's and that was when we moved from Indiana to Kentucky. I hate it here and I really miss my family. I was extremely close to my family until I moved. I have missed so much with my nieces, and nephew that I feel like I am now a stranger to them. I know things will be changing soon, we are making a huge effort to get back to Indiana, but no matter how much we look for jobs up there, we haven't gotten any leads.

Tom is depressed more than I am. He misses the kids so much, he spent 6 years getting a Bachelors degree in Marketing and no one will give him a job even though he is more then qualified for the one's he has apply for. I don't get it. We are told our whole lives that if you get good grades, and go to college you will get a good job. It hasn't happened for him. I know the economy is cruddy right now but why is that there are a ton of jobs on Career Builder, and he applies and never hears back? It sucks. I am here for him every day with positive words and encouragement but it only goes so far. Like I said I have my bad day's also and I just want to scream in the middle of an empty forest where no one can hear me.

Things will get better soon. I know this. I have a lot of positive aspects in my life and I know there are a ton of people out there right now suffering through things I couldn't even imagine of going through.

As for the friends part of my life. I just wish I had someone I could talk about shopping, hobbies, make-up, cooking, gardening, and just plain chat with. I miss my sister. She has always been the bestest friend I have ever had. I can't wait to move back to Indiana.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Thoughts and Pondering

We had a wonderful time with the kids for Spring Break and we miss them so much already. I can't to be moved back near them.

I'm having an off day today and have been really sad. I usually don't talk about my feelings on here due to not wanting to come off sounding like I need to be pitied or whiny, but I have no one to talk to other then my husband. He's great in so many way's and he understands me like no one in my life ever has.

I miss having friends though. I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me. I read a ton of different blogs and I get so sad when I see that most of the people have friends that they hang out with and go have coffee, have a nice dinner, crafting, knitting, crocheting, cooking. I had friends at one time but we fell out of touch due to life changes. I am on and there are so many women there that I have so much in common with but I still have not made one solid friendship.

I feel lost sometimes. I know I am being a booger and no one wants to read about others problems and I will apologize now. I'm homesick, depressed, and lonely. All I can hope for is to move back to Indiana soon.